power is given for the here and now. We may think and deliberate and
mull things over for months, but God is ready to begin immediately when
it comes to matters of His will." Bruce Wilkinson, Prayer of Jabez devotional
Okay, to be honest, the Prayer of Jabez devotional is on a shelf in my bathroom. It was a quick read today and it struck a chord with me. Even if *I'm* not ready, God always is.
I had a bit of a breakdown over the weekend, but with the help of my husband and some friends, I let it ALL out. I was holding back for quite some time, as I didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable around me, I didn't want to burden people. But that was the WRONG thing to do.
That night, I slept well for the first time in nearly 6 weeks. I was no longer carrying my burden alone. I felt understood. Now, I'm able to pray without crying and asking "why". I was able to sing throughout worship at church Sunday morning WITHOUT crying. It was a GREAT day!