Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Thankfulness

In the midst of uncertainty, it's best if SOMEONE keeps calm; if SOMEONE has patience and self-control. If not, life can be sheer chaos.

Having to be that someone is not easy. Especially when you have little children. I am constantly trying to reassure myself that God gave me the ability to parent these children calmly and quietly. I *know* He did! It may not always show, but it's there.

The past week and a half has been interesting. My husband herniated three discs in his back leaving him out of work and on disability for a bit. After many days at home in pain and physically incapable of being himself he's feeling a little down as is the rest of the family. It's less pay and a different schedule than we're all used to which puts a LOT of stress on us as a family.

However, I have found MANY reasons to be thankful and I know I am TRULY blessed. God has opened up something in me and it feels so good. I have such a positive outlook and I know that He. will. provide! I know that my family will be taken care of. I know that God has His hand on us and is guiding us through a difficult time.

I'm singing praise songs as I'm doing my daily chores. I'm going over uplifting verses in my head to keep me going.

As I drive down the road, I have my windows open and the radio off and listening to the wonderful sounds of the summer and soaking it all in. The warm breeze through the windows, the rustling of the trees. So peaceful. All provided by Our Father!

Two years ago, I would have been a complete wreck in this situation. I'm not sure what it is but I'm different. I feel more . . . whole. Like I know who I am now. And I'm thankful for that. Thankful for patience and self-control.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

A Mother's Job Is Never Done

One day, before I die, I hope that I can have just a SINGLE evening where I can say I really have NOTHING else to do! Not a dish that needs to be washed or load of laundry that needs to be folded and put away. The trash will be taken out and all the counters will be washed. The floors will be spotless and I can sit down and do absolutely nothing.

However, that day is nowhere NEAR! Heck, I even dream the next day's projects. I review the grocery list as I'm nodding off. My husband has asked me why I can't just "stop thinking and go to sleep". It's impossible to do. I wonder how common this really is and if any man has the same issue.

It's 10:43 at night and I'm just now making some white bread for tomorrow. I also have the floor picked up so I can steam clean the carpeting and go over the couch once with the cleaner. Sleep? I don't need to sleep . . . . I need to clean the house. It needs to be done when the kids are asleep or they'll run amuck, trashing the house right behind me.

But I know there will be a day where I can plop down on my chair, with the house being clean, and finally be able to relax.

Monday, July 6, 2009

This should be fun!

I'm hoping a blog will allow me to write what's on my mind. To write what won't fit in my Facebook status.

Throughout the course of my day, odd things happen. I then think about the best way to sum it up in my FB status and it is never really done justice to the oddity.

So, without further ado, here's Me!