In the midst of uncertainty, it's best if SOMEONE keeps calm; if SOMEONE has patience and self-control. If not, life can be sheer chaos.
Having to be that someone is not easy. Especially when you have little children. I am constantly trying to reassure myself that God gave me the ability to parent these children calmly and quietly. I *know* He did! It may not always show, but it's there.
The past week and a half has been interesting. My husband herniated three discs in his back leaving him out of work and on disability for a bit. After many days at home in pain and physically incapable of being himself he's feeling a little down as is the rest of the family. It's less pay and a different schedule than we're all used to which puts a LOT of stress on us as a family.
However, I have found MANY reasons to be thankful and I know I am TRULY blessed. God has opened up something in me and it feels so good. I have such a positive outlook and I know that He. will. provide! I know that my family will be taken care of. I know that God has His hand on us and is guiding us through a difficult time.
I'm singing praise songs as I'm doing my daily chores. I'm going over uplifting verses in my head to keep me going.
As I drive down the road, I have my windows open and the radio off and listening to the wonderful sounds of the summer and soaking it all in. The warm breeze through the windows, the rustling of the trees. So peaceful. All provided by Our Father!
Two years ago, I would have been a complete wreck in this situation. I'm not sure what it is but I'm different. I feel more . . . whole. Like I know who I am now. And I'm thankful for that. Thankful for patience and self-control.