Yes, there's a lot of fluff there, but the belly *is* growing. 15 weeks 3 days.
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Friday, June 7, 2013
That's All
The only concrete evidence I have that my first twin existed are the results of my ultrasound 10/11/12. I don't know why I felt compelled to look at them again, but I did.
INTERPRETATION:
Within the uterus there appears to be a single gestational sac. A yolk sac is identified. There is a fetal pole within with an adjacent smaller solid structure as well. This raises the question of a twin pregnancy with fetal demise of one of the two. The largest structure with cardiac activity at 195 beats per minute labeled twin A with a mean crown-rump length of 30 mm corresponding to 9 weeks and 6 days.
The smaller structure labeled twin B is 19 mm corresponding with gestational age of 8 weeks and 3 days. No activity.
The patient's uterus is retroverted.
CONCLUSION:
1. Single living pregnancy identified within the uterus based on the mean crown-rump length is at 9 weeks 6 days with an EDC 05/10/2013.
2. Within this same sac, is a second more difficult to see structure that would raise the question of a twin pregnancy. This would correspond to 8 weeks and 3 days. No cardiac activity is identified within. This raises the question of demise of a twin.
This is all there is. No ultrasound photo. Just words.
I had another scan on November 1. This was just 6 days after miscarrying the first twin.
2. The previous anatomic findings raising suspicion for a twin pregnancy with demise is no longer seen. There is a septation however. This may represent further resorption of a previous demise.
I don't think of it often, but when I do, it hurts.
INTERPRETATION:
Within the uterus there appears to be a single gestational sac. A yolk sac is identified. There is a fetal pole within with an adjacent smaller solid structure as well. This raises the question of a twin pregnancy with fetal demise of one of the two. The largest structure with cardiac activity at 195 beats per minute labeled twin A with a mean crown-rump length of 30 mm corresponding to 9 weeks and 6 days.
The smaller structure labeled twin B is 19 mm corresponding with gestational age of 8 weeks and 3 days. No activity.
The patient's uterus is retroverted.
CONCLUSION:
1. Single living pregnancy identified within the uterus based on the mean crown-rump length is at 9 weeks 6 days with an EDC 05/10/2013.
2. Within this same sac, is a second more difficult to see structure that would raise the question of a twin pregnancy. This would correspond to 8 weeks and 3 days. No cardiac activity is identified within. This raises the question of demise of a twin.
This is all there is. No ultrasound photo. Just words.
I had another scan on November 1. This was just 6 days after miscarrying the first twin.
2. The previous anatomic findings raising suspicion for a twin pregnancy with demise is no longer seen. There is a septation however. This may represent further resorption of a previous demise.
I don't think of it often, but when I do, it hurts.
Retro
Austin saw this bike at our Church's garage sale and was hoping to buy it. On the last day of the sale, he made an offer of $10 (the last in his piggy bank) and the bike was his.
He wants to spray paint it. I said absolutely not. I think all of the kids will good some good use out of this bike.
Thursday, June 6, 2013
First Purchase For Baby
I was hesitant to purchase anything because I didn't want to 'jinx' the pregnancy, but I couldn't resist. Crazy 8 was having a great sale!
We have a shirt for Ian that says 'Lil' Bro' and thought the new shirt would come in handy this winter. ;-)
This past Wednesday marked the 15 week mark for me. We lost our second twin at 15 weeks 6 days. Hoping the next few days fly by and our little sweet pea hangs on.
At this point, I'm feeling pretty good. No huge complaints other than lack of sleep and crazy mad heartburn that leads to esophageal spasms. Otherwise, the morning sickness is pretty much gone! Yay!
Just a few more weeks until the big ultrasound. We can't wait!
We have a shirt for Ian that says 'Lil' Bro' and thought the new shirt would come in handy this winter. ;-)
This past Wednesday marked the 15 week mark for me. We lost our second twin at 15 weeks 6 days. Hoping the next few days fly by and our little sweet pea hangs on.
At this point, I'm feeling pretty good. No huge complaints other than lack of sleep and crazy mad heartburn that leads to esophageal spasms. Otherwise, the morning sickness is pretty much gone! Yay!
Just a few more weeks until the big ultrasound. We can't wait!
Saturday, June 1, 2013
New Project
As if I didn't have enough to do. I figured I'd better get some sewing done before all the swelling starts.
The fabric is cut and I've got a few pieces sewn together. I'm making quilts for the girls' beds. They are SO excited!!
The fabric is cut and I've got a few pieces sewn together. I'm making quilts for the girls' beds. They are SO excited!!
Monday, May 13, 2013
From the Box
With today being my due date for my twins, I thought I'd share a bit from the box that I was sent home with. They help to me remember that my babies were real. There is still heart ache in these things for me.
Todd and I snuggled with these after we got home from the hospital. It was hard being home and recovering without having a baby in my arms. These two items brought us a bit of comfort.
The baby wasn't developed enough to tell the sex, so we were told to go with whatever was in our hearts. I cannot tell you how terribly difficult that was.
The nurse had said she wasn't sure if she'd get footprints, as our baby had already started to decompose (sorry, it's true). So thankful for these two squishy little prints. It proves that our baby was here and was real.
Yesterday, Mother's Day, was especially hard for me. I felt lonely and my heart ached for my babies.
Being pregnant surely doesn't take away the pain from my losses. In fact, every little pain and twinge gets my stomach in a knot, wondering if it's going to happen again.
I have detached myself from this pregnancy quite a bit. I fear that any happiness will be stripped away like last time. I don't know when or IF that will change.
Todd was sweet and remembered this day would be hard for me.
My husband knows how important symbolism is to me. Lilies are my favorite.
White means life...
I can never go back to before my losses. My heart has forever been changed. I pray for God's protection over this little life inside me and pray it's His will for it to grow and make it to my arms. I don't know what else there is.
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| A small fleece blanket with a crocheted edging and a rattle sheep |
Todd and I snuggled with these after we got home from the hospital. It was hard being home and recovering without having a baby in my arms. These two items brought us a bit of comfort.
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| Small foot prints and a crib card |
The baby wasn't developed enough to tell the sex, so we were told to go with whatever was in our hearts. I cannot tell you how terribly difficult that was.
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| Beautiful footprints just over a centimeter in size |
The nurse had said she wasn't sure if she'd get footprints, as our baby had already started to decompose (sorry, it's true). So thankful for these two squishy little prints. It proves that our baby was here and was real.
Yesterday, Mother's Day, was especially hard for me. I felt lonely and my heart ached for my babies.
Being pregnant surely doesn't take away the pain from my losses. In fact, every little pain and twinge gets my stomach in a knot, wondering if it's going to happen again.
I have detached myself from this pregnancy quite a bit. I fear that any happiness will be stripped away like last time. I don't know when or IF that will change.
Todd was sweet and remembered this day would be hard for me.
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| A wonderful delivery of white lilies this morning |
My husband knows how important symbolism is to me. Lilies are my favorite.
White means life...
I can never go back to before my losses. My heart has forever been changed. I pray for God's protection over this little life inside me and pray it's His will for it to grow and make it to my arms. I don't know what else there is.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Bittersweet
EDD with my twins: 05/13/13
Miscarriage of twin A: 10/26/12
Miscarriage and delivery of twin B: 11/25/2012
EDD of baby Bergren #8: 11/27/2013
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